It’s March in Wisconsin – it’s still cold, I’m withdrawn, and I’m stuck with chronic pain from a tumor. The last 8 months I’ve had depression slip in and grow. I’m not who I was and want to be. Why am I sharing this? To let you know what’s helping me so I can help others.
Art is my constant. It helps to relax me, aids in my self expression, and it’s about the only time that I’m not hurting is when I’m creating.
I’m realty starting to understand what other Multiple Myeloma cancer patients experience – chronic pain and being tired. I’m normally a very positive person but after a few years, it weighs anyone down so I’m on a quest to get back to my positive attitude. I’m also fighting the urge to be embarrassed about sharing the fact that I hurt and I’m depressed about that.
There is a learning curve to any new experience in life and every art project. I’m learning to go with the flow just like in my paintings. Trusting the process is essential to remain resilient and I see that as my paintings get better with each layer. Sometimes a layer is ugly – just like life, but the next experiment on the canvas turns out great.
I’m learning that art – like life and people aren’t perfect. Striving for perfection with art or life will only bring frustration so I’m putting down my expectations little by little.Without expectations, one is able to see the big picture instead of just what can be seen with the blinders of “I should”.
Art is my constant and so is Reiki. I find that when my energy gets blocked and I feel walled off, I call my Reiki master Rene Christesen at Channels Studio and after a session I will feel opened up, my creative juices flow, and I’m so much happier.
Write yourself a permission slip today for some self care. Do something creative and get some reiki (Rene does distance sessions) and keep doing the best you can!