I’m a Beginner

Spring AbstractThis is the first mixed media painting I did used thick textures in acrylic and then adding cut out elements from a watercolor painting I did. I really liked how it turned out but I know I’m still a beginner at mixing the two mediums.

I’m a beginner when it comes to knowing how to use the watercolor medium and how to “make” it do what I want. I’ve got a huge plastic bag of my attempts with watercolor that I save to rip up for collage projects. I know it’s going to take a long time to get really comfortable with this medium so I’m learning to give myself a break. I’m a beginner and I’m having fun learning how to use watercolor paint in a way that excites me.

I’ve been creating jewelry for over 20 years and I know how to make the beads do what I want them to but I started out as a beginner. I floundered and got very frustrated, but I had agreed to be thrown into the fire as I was working for a bead store. I had to know how to show people the techniques so I didn’t have the luxury to learning at my own pace.

Altered notebookCreating is all about curiosity, exploring, making mistakes, and going with the flow of the materials you are using. Give yourself the permission to be a beginner and you won’t get so frustrated.

It’s when we expect too much of ourselves and think we need to be masters at something we are trying for the first time. I know this from experience and I recognize that in myself. I practice putting my expectations down (it’s a hard practice especially for type A personalities and people pleasers).

permission slipwrite yourself a permission slip and remember that expecting too much of yourself is very harmful and unnecessary. If you’re a beginner – own it and explore. If you’ve been doing something for awhile you are going to be back to beginner at some point because you’re going to expand your knowledge.

It’s great to be a beginner because that means you’re learning something new which is always an enriching experience. Relax, practice self-compassion, acknowledge the voice that tells you negative stuff, and let the pressure go.

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